So as you know…(yea i write as though someone even knows i exist) my blog is an ongoing tribute to the chaos that is my brain, nothing seems to settle it, its always changing colors, and it has no idea in what direction to go.
I’m sure that you have heard the old saying about “idle hands“, well it seems that its the same for “idle brains”……
A little over 2 years ago I took a new job….one that allowed for large amounts of idle time in distant places. Where I was working at the time was a chaotic place indeed, as on the slowest days i worked 16 hours a day, and most were upwards of 20 hours. I remember my first day at this new job, I looked at my boss and asked sincerely “is this really all you need me to do”.
It took a bit to get used to but after a few months i got into a groove and realized i could now per sue some of the things i had been wanting to do. I enrolled in an online photography course….and had the spare time now to go out and shoot a lot more.
2+ years into it and i’m wondering what to do with myself. I’m bored a lot. i have way too much time to think. i think about things to do, and projects i want to accomplish, places i want to go, adventures i want to have, and then for some reason, when i get home, I DO NOTHING. I am not motivated anymore, I have become stagnant, colorless, and a dreamer not a doer. This bothers me quite a bit.
An email from a new friend last night kinda put a boot in my ass….it was a good critique of my chaotic site, and i’m thankful for the honesty. Back a few posts ago i talked about emotional upgrades….and pretty much skimmed around and avoided myself in that one…well time has come….
