I have stated more than once that this time of year usually signifies a time of change for me. Jobs and Relationship changes have always seemed to center themselves around this time of year, along with my moods and thoughts. Maybe it’s the seasonal thing getting to me, the transition from summer to fall and then on to winter. Sometimes I wish fall was the only season. The colors, the festivities, the harvests, and all sorts of others I’m sure I am failing to mention.
The biggest thing I think that happens to me during this time of the year is personal reflection. Where was I a year ago, did I accomplish what I wanted to, what should I work on for the next year.
This year has if you ask me been a flop. I have failed to reach many if not all of my goals, one simply to do a better job at maintaining this blog. I didn’t think that twice a week was asking to much, but as I thought about it, I don’t really have a lot of Photography content to talk about, which made me ask the question, “am I a photographer?” or am i just chasing a dream that is unattainable for me. Well the answer so far is that I don’t really know. Two years ago I took a job that afforded me not only travel but a lot of free time to push into this photography thing, and in a way it has been good, in others not so much. In my day I was a great Aircraft Technician, relentless in tracking down big problems, and hungry for the issues that no one else could sort out. Now though, two years later, I struggle to even be interested. My job is currently still that of an Aircraft Technician, and when it boils down to it in a situation I am 100 percent there, but no longer it is a passion. So now my current passion for photography has taken over and in my mind are shutter speeds, f stops, the strobist light laws (inverse square law that is), color pallets, and the thoughts “what happens if i lay in the dirt with a wide angle pointed up at those trees”, instead of knowing that the probable cause of fan imbalance on a CF6-80D1F is the fan hub bearing cavity seal (pn 88903-67) and that I can fix it in about 30 min if we have the seal. I think I miss it a bit.
Anyway, over the past year quite a few new and exciting things have happened for not only me but my family as well. My sister in California meeting a great guy whom she seems mad about, my other sisters house purchase, and new puppy. My cousin Matt (who will always be 8 years old in my mind) with his new wife Jaimmie and their new baby due in December. I photographed their wedding for them and will post a few later. Being home for their wedding brought me back to my parents home in Pennsylvania for a few days, and back in touch with my Parents, and Grandparents a little sooner than expected. I usually try to make it home for Christmas or sometime around that time to see everyone, as I only make it back home to PA about once a year, and it was this trip that started me on my fall emotional journey. Being back home during this time of the year is something i have not done in almost 10 years. I realized how much I missed the fall on the east coast. I started making photos, and that led to more thoughts, and more photos.
As for me, and the changes in my life this year, well, I was asked by a friend to take her wedding photos, of which i was extremely nervous, which in turn started a little journey of being asked to do another friends wedding, and then my cousins last month. A few jobs for November have spawned from word of mouth and I’m nervous, and excited all at once. Am I ready to let go of my beloved airplanes and do this full time, and can I be good at it. I have no idea. I do know that I have been online for the last few days combing over other photographers works for inspiration and also to justify myself, but they are all so great, i feel very inadequate. I wonder if this is something I can do, I see their vision and wonder where mine is. Here is a list of amazing photographers that I have been visiting frequently.
The most influential being Aexian Studios and their amazing video work. I’ll embed a sample at the end of the post. All of them are amazing photgraphers and I am humbled by the work they are doing.
Now onto the re-invention of myself for the next year. I have begun to make upgrades to the Blog in both appearance and structure. A lot of my things have been quite random and scattered so I’m working on collecting and organizing things. Working on creating an online portfolio, that will be showcased here on the blog, and the whole thing will be moving a little on my site. I’ll be removing it from the /blog sub-directory and actually making it the face of my site. I guess all of these are just site upgrades and not JASON upgrades…..
Enough for now…..here are some photos from my trip home ….and the youtube video at the bottom
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